Nothing (Without You)

Have you even been unsure of your place in life? I remember being in high school and having doubts and fears about the future. That is a normal part of growing up and we all go through something similar. The same sort of feelings arise during times of change. Graduating college, getting married, having children and changing careers can all throw you for a loop. I have done them all and have come out on the other side…but I am still unsure. Iam rapidly approaching 40 and I have not figured this whole “life” thing out. I think I know what my calling is but the doors remain shut. At what point do you stop and ask, “Am I wrong?” Have I spent the last four years in vain? I am glad that I went back to school and finished. There was always a feeling of failure hovering over me. I never managed to complete anything until I finally graduated from college. But here I sit…a year later…wondering if it was worth it. The last two ministries I was involved with ended prematurely and have got me wondering again. Did I go through all of the crap I went through just to be back in a restaurant…working insane hours? I confess…I just do not get it. I am frustrated and I am not sure. I am not sure about anything. This faith thing…man…what a ride.

Yes…I still live and breathe. It’s been quite a while since I posted here. To be perfectly honest…I totally forgot that I had this thing. I never did leave the other two blogs that I keep and then somehow I got sucked into MySpace and then Facebook. I never did stand a chance.

Anyways…I finished school back in May. I graduated with a B.S. in Biblical Exposition with a minor in Preaching. I spent seven months serving as the interim minister at a small country church in North Carolina where I was totally blindsided by church politics…again. I am currently residing in Pearlington, Mississippi with my family. I am in the process of planting a new church in a community that was literally destroyed by Hurrican Katrina three years ago.

As I sit and type this…I am watching Hurricane Ike and wondering just where he’ll go. We were forced to evacuate last week as Hurricane Gustav came into the Gulf. Our house (which is still being finished) received some minor water damage so we won’t be able to move in for another 3 weeks. It’s okay though…God is providing in a mighty way.

I’m really glad I stumbled back in here. I kind of like this place.