I am a blessed man. I haven’t always felt that way. There have been times in my life (some of them not too terribly long ago) when I honestly wondered why God was allowing me to go through the things I was going through. There have been many nights when I sat up alone telling God that I just could not go one more day. After all of my efforts had failed I realized that there were some things that I could not handle on my own. I let pride and fear rob me of my joy for a long time. I let guilt bury me because I tried to do things on my own and I always seemed to fail. It took a long time for me to be able to sit still and admit that I was not strong enough to fix things. That’s why I like this song so much. It’s a simple song but it helps me remember that I don’t have to fix everything. There are things in this life that are beyond my abilities. The thing I had a hard time understanding was that God sometimes uses those things to bring me closer to Him.
In 2 Corinthians 12 Paul talks about a “thorn in his flesh” and writes these words:
8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12:8-10 (ESV)
Paul begged God for relief and God told him, “No.” I believe He has done the same thing in my life. I’ll be honest, I didn’t like it at the time and there were moments when I got made at Him. However, I believe He was saying the same thing to me. Paul also wrote the words that this song is based upon.
10 I rejoiced in the Lord greatly that now at length you have revived your concern for me. You were indeed concerned for me, but you had no opportunity. 11 Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. 12 I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance andneed. 13 I can do all things through him who strengthens me.
Philippians 4:10-13 (ESV)
When I trust God to take me through the hard times, He does it. That’s not easy for me but I understand it better now. Jesus taught that if we truly seek the kingdom of God before all else then God will provide our needs. His Spirit helps us do that. I am so thankful for that because I know I can’t do it on my own. I’m just not strong enough.
Grace and peace.